Mundy’s Gap is an incredibly long, steep ascent up a scree field. When you look up, it’s intimidating. Ranging in size from peanuts to footballs, it looks like the devil dumped an ocean of red rocks off the top of the mountain and they rolled into this valley. My first time up, the rocks bit my ankles. Every step rolled my joints and slowed me down. The loose rocks shifted and clanked against each other beneath my feet.
The higher you climb through the gap, the more wind overtakes you. I never considered wind to be a factor in a race, but I was wrong. 30 mph gusts would be plague my progress throughout the entire race, depending what side of the range you were on. The cold rushing air pummels you the every step up until you cross the gap and suddenly, one single step on the other side, the earth is quiet. You can see forever.
The climb to the highest peak is an out-and-back with the Mundy’s Gap aid station at the base. It’s so windy at this place that they can’t have tents and all food must be kept in bins. The poor volunteers tried stacking the bins to make a wall and the wind blew them down. It’s a sharp, cold wind, too. It kicks up and levels off, depending where you are on your mission to the peak.
The view from the top displays the backbone of the mountain. You get to run up, down and around everything you can see.I followed a strong 100k gal named Kelly on my way up, and smiled at the lead 100 mile female coming down; she had blood on her thigh. The rocky, vertical terrain claimed several bloody knees by the end. I had not fallen, but I felt my bursa complaining and a few twinges in my feet. It was hot (like, almost 70 degrees). Most runners had long sleeves on and I was sweating in a tank top. We had some laughs about it.
Descending a mountain is THE lesson I learned at Lone Star. At first, I picked my way carefully among the stones, wary of taking a tumble and unsure how to harness gravity. I had read about not “putting on the brakes” when you have steep downhills, but I didn’t want to kiss a prickly pear, either. I tried to hurry, obviously, but I felt inefficient and had no stride.
At 20 miles in, on the nose, I looked down at my watch and shouted into the wilderness, “I figured out the rocks!” (I let out a little whoop, too). I finally learned to trust my feet and step evenly with a wide foot. It took one embarrassingly slow descent off Franklin to teach my brain the movement, but the rest of my climbs and descents up the gap and over the pass were amazing. I learned to float. I learned to dance with my mind turned off. I learned to look ahead instead of stare at my feet. I don’t quite know what clicked, but it did.
The back half of the loop is significantly easier. It’s still single-track, not flat by any means, and 6-7 miles between aid stations. The path is a little less rocky and the elevation changes aren’t as strenuous. The course explores foothills, winds over and around arroyos and saddles, wanders through ocotillo fields, and finally crosses a few smaller gaps and circles back to the start.
I still hit a strange low place early one, at mile 27 or 28. I’m not sure if it was heat or just the first feelings of exhaustion, or maybe it’s just the length of time to get back to the start even though your mind knows you’re nearing the end of the loop. Either way, I started to feel slightly tired and discouraged alone in the desert. I checked my phone and read messages from my husband, who had been updating friends and family. It bolstered my resolve and put a smile on my face. I picked up the pace.
I made great time on the first loop. My goal was to do it in 10 hours, and I was on schedule. I made quick business of the aid stations: replenish my pack with water, fill my tailwind bottle, switch up my shoes and check my feet, confirm I had plenty of salt tabs. Grab a handful of real food. Without hesitation, I got back out there. Rob warned me at the pre-race meeting that almost every person who didn’t finish the race quit at the start/finish (especially since you pass through it twice each loop).
The sun sank low and golden. 12 hours had passed. 24 to go.
My goal for the second loop was to find a friend for the night. A few runners had already dropped, and I was afraid the field was too sparse and spread out for me to find someone with a similar pace. I had run with a few different folks on and off, but none for very long. Boomer had passed me early on, but eventually I passed him. I didn’t see him again.
Eventually I met a strong runner, Rosalba, who’s pacer had bailed. We planned to tackle the night together, but somehow we lost each other at the aid station. I couldn’t find her so I hurried out to catch up, only to realize much later that I had left without her.
I was afraid that when the sun was gone, my spirit would go down too. As the shadows grew, I didn’t let them get long in my mind. I stayed positive and confident, letting no negative thoughts in and naming all the things that had gone well. I had no blisters, barely chaffed, no stomach issues, felt hydrated and had been on top of taking in salt and calories. I was playing the game to the best of my ability so far. My body felt great.
Besides, it’s really hard to be discouraged when you’re in the middle of raw nature. I felt lucky to be there, not punished. Suffering is, or will be, part of the 100 mile game.
I finished the mini loop and refueled before heading up the gap. The aid stations were now fully stocked with hot food, broths, treats, and my favorite corn quesadillas. I pigged out for a brief minute, grabbed my night clothes, and greeted the runners I’d started to recognize and leapfrog (including another Julie). It felt like the field was thinning I climbed Mundy’s gap alone, I felt watched. Paranoid. I looked around and only saw rocks, more rocks, and the chartreuse flash of a course marker every couple dozen yards. I was expecting to turn my head at any moment and be face to face with a mountain lioness. Then I saw them. Two reflective eyes. I froze. A split second later, I realized it was just a little gray fox.
There’s a small 90 degree step up on the trail that I knew about (it’s an unexpected corner in the middle of nowhere) but I wasn’t paying attention. I stepped straight and tipped over right onto a Spanish Dagger. I laughed. I knew it was bound to happen.
I joked with my new friend, Justin, that I’m from a land of wildflowers, mud, and grasses. In the desert, everything is trying to hurt you. The very air whips sand against your skin and dries out your nose, throat, and eyes. The plants draw blood and the rocks break bones. The animals are poisonous and the climate is offensive. We laughed.
We reached Franklin peak in the dark. Our pace had slowed to an efficient hike, both up and down, but that was part of the plan. It’s very exhausting mentally to run in the dark with your eyes having to calculate quickly and not trip.
Justin was a quirky engineer from Las Cruces, and we had a blast talking and picking our way through the night, kicking down the hours and miles. I told him about lutefisk and hot dish – he told me about tamales and desert running. We had the constant company of tiny spiders with green glittery eyes. I looked at them like friendly gemstones every few feet who would scuttle away if you got too close. In the back of the mountain we picked up Alex, a 100k finisher who was walking alone out there. The three of use made great company and pushed on as a team. When one stopped to pee, we all stopped. We took turns leading. The temperature dropped and varied depending on elevation and wind. It was hot, cold, warm, freezing. We switched up our layers often and re-evaluated at every aid station. As we drew nearer to the Pavilion, we heard the yips of coyotes circling nearby.
Toward the end of the loop, we started to do some math. Our progress during the night was slow. I had anticipated that, but the first cutoff was at 24 hours and it was now 3am. We had to be starting our third loop by 5am. We started to run again, and I began to worry. Once you start playing the cutoff game, you are stuck playing the cutoff game.
We came down Tommy’s Revenge into the start/finish at 4:30am. I grabbed everything I needed as quickly as possible and knew that I had to get out. John came over to kick me out, too, because the next cutoff would be the hardest one. It would be a game-ender to waste a moment at an aid station when I should be moving. The sun came up, but rather than reassuring me that I had made it to the final day, I felt my time slipping away.
The crux of the race is Mundy's Gap. You need to make it up to Franklin Peak, get your bracelet, and be back at the gap by 10am or you will be cut. By the time I had climbed the scree field the third and final time, I was exhausted. It’s too much vert and too slow of terrain to do efficiently. My stress level increased. I started to think about being pulled.
I approached the base of Mundy’s at 8:50 am. There would not be enough time to get up and down. I started to choke on my tears. I got to the gap, and the volunteers looked at me sympathetically. “You have to be back by 10am,” one said quietly.“I can do it,” I mumbled. I dropped my pack on the side of the trail took off my hat. At 80 miles in, I started running up the switchbacks.Every time my left foot struck the ground, I yelled in my head I can do this! I can do this! I can do this! I can do this! For two miles. To be honest with you, I didn’t know if I could do it, but I kept pace with my mantra. My throat kept closing up and I wanted to sit down and cry. Stop crying, keep breathing, you can’t run and cry at the same time (which is true).The climb had taken me two hours before. I looked at my watch. A half hour had passed and I had only reached the first false summit. Keep running. I can do it. I don’t know if I can do it. I can do it.I finally turned the long corner leading to the top, and a volunteer was putting the lid on the bracelets. “Wait!” I yelled, “I need one of those!” He let me take my blue rubber band and said, “You have to be down by 10am, 23 (my bib number). Go, go, go.”“I can do it,” I whispered. I flew.
From Rob Goyen, Race Director:
1 MINUTE..
I TEXTED MY AID STATION PERSONNEL AT MUNDYS GAP AT 9:40 THAT THE 10AM CUTOFF NEEDED TO PROCEED. THEY TOLD ME THAT RUNNERS HAD HEADED UP THE MOUNTAIN MORE THAN HOUR AGO BUT NONE HAD MADE IT DOWN. I TOLD THE AID STATION TO TEXT ME WITH AN UPDATE IN 10 MIN.
WE CHATTED ABOUT PROCEDURE ON WALKING THEM DOWN AS A GROUP, OR WAITING ON ONE OF THEM ETC. AND SO MY MIND BEGAN TO WONDER, WHAT WAS THEIR MENTALITY AS THEY RACED DOWN THAT BRUTAL TERRAIN? DID THEY PUSH WITH ALL THEY HAD TO GRAB THAT BLUE BRACELET TURN AROUND AND THROW EVERY OUNCE OF PAIN ASIDE?
WHAT HAPPENS IF THEY DID AND IT WAS ALL FOR NOT?
5 MINUTES LEFT.. THE TEXT READS THAT NONE ARE BACK YET.
I’M A FAN AT THIS POINT.. I AM LOOKING UP TO PEAK, KNOWING I CANNOT SEE THEM BUT ROOTING FOR THEM TO KEEP PUSHING AND TO NOT GIVE UP HOPE.
I DO A FINAL CHECK IN WITH 2 MINUTES LEFT.. ANY SIGNS OF ANYONE COMING DOWN..
NO ONE VISIBLE…
AT 1 MIN LEFT I GET A TEXT… 102 AND 23 CAME FLYING IN LESS THAN A MINUTE LEFT ON THE CLOCK.
NOW WE HAVE A GAME TO WATCH, I THOUGHT. I SEND OUT A TEXT TO MY AID STATION CAPTAINS, “102 AND 23 ARE FIGHTING CUTOFFS REPORT TO ME WHEN YOU SEE THEM AND GET THEM OUT ASAP.”
AS THE RACE UNFOLDED, I STEADILY WATCHED MY PHONE. EAST AID STATION REPORTS THAT THE 2 RUNNERS GOT IN AT 11:37, GIVING THEM A 23 MIN CUSHION ON THE CUTOFF.
A COUPLE HOURS LATER, THE WEST AID STATION REPORTS THE RUNNERS CAME IN AROUND 1:53, GIVING THEM A 17 MIN CUSHION ON THE FINAL DEADLINE.
AND SO WE WAIT. THE FINAL CLIMB FROM PAVILLION IS ONLY 1.5 MILES, BUT AS GNARLY AS THEY COME.
AND, WITH MORE THAN 40 MINUTES LEFT, I GET THE TEXT BOTH RUNNERS ARE UP THE CLIMB AND THEY BOTH WOULD FINISH.
EVEN THOUGH I’M A RACE DIRECTOR IM STILL MORE OF A FAN OF THE SPORT THAN ANYTHING.
WITH A RACE LIKE LONE STAR, YOU CANT HELP BUT ROOT FOR EVERYONE WHO DARES TO START THE RACE.
I made it.The aid station came into view below me and heard them wildly banging cowbells and yelling for me. I grabbed my pack at the bottom, raised my fist in victory, and ran straight past. I needed to get off the damn mountain and start the finals section. As soon as I rounded the corner, I finally burst into tears. I have never felt more proud of myself, or pushed so hard, in my life. The relief and confidence washed over me like sunshine and everything that had been tense and choked up, loosened.I knew I could make the rest of the cutoffs. The hard part was done, and done to the best of my ability.
That is not to say that the final miles were easy. After 95 miles, still having 10 to go, my legs started to seize up and my shuffling felt ragged. The slightest downhills felt stinging and disjointed. I no longer wanted to eat, drink, pee, stop, anything. All I thirsted for was the final descent across the finish.I had one thing on my mind, and one only. The pink relay runner passed me one last time, and I knew I was the last man on the course. I didn’t lose heart. I started to shiver and visualize comfy warm clothes and a shower.Finally, I saw the Pavillion. I saw Tommy’s Revenge in the distance, and I knew I was in the gnarly home stretch. The wind picked up and cut through my thin jacket and bare legs, roared in my ears and occasionally knocked me a step or two back as I climbed the ridge.
I heard the cowbells. I saw the finish line. Tears pricked my eyes. I looked at my watch and saw that I was at 35:35.I broke into a run.
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